Life is really strange. Sometimes you're so sure exactly what's wrong, what's bothering you. But then when that problem is somehow resolved or settled, you realize, you're still not happy at all. The people around me think I'm so sensible and confident where my future is headed now that I've decided on nursing, but I can't help and think this isn't all I want.
Yesterday, I had work from 7:30 AM - 2:30 PM. I planned on going straight home and relaxing, but Joe's desperate call asking me to hang out with her bf left me no option, but to go out with them. Mario is really depressed and needs your help, she said. So I went. Spent the night listening to him talk and giving him advice because the problems he's going through now I already went through a year ago. By the end of the night they thanked me countless times and I can tell the talk really helped him. I'm happy I could help, but in the back of my mind, when he says he appreciates me and all that, I can't help, but think that we were never friends in high school. I'm only doing this because of Joe and so are you. I don't know. It's weird.
Okay. I don't know where I'm getting at as usual. All I know is I'm feeling down and alone right now. No one I can ever seem to call on.
Current Mood: frustrated